Just keep swimming

I haven’t been in the mood to post in awhile. Things have felt bleak. Both my emotional mood and the physical have been less than stellar. The two go hand in hand and in the midst of another flare up, I got very down and depressed.  When that depression hits, everything seems so dark and empty and it is so scary because I can’t even remember a time when it wasn’t that way. This week was tough and although the kids at work kept my mind occupied and made me smile, I wasn’t sure I could do this all again next week.

But then, I received a call from the MS One to One program and with the help of my neurologists advocacy letter, Great West Life approved me for the Lemtrada treatment! Holy fuck, I was so scared of doing the treatment and then so scared that I wouldn’t have the opportunity to do it and now I’m floored. Maybe this is my chance, my opportunity to get better, to feel better. I don’t know what lays ahead but I can say that as of right now, I’m looking forward to tomorrow.

Thanks for all the support.