It’s a rare time when I don’t lay in bed tossing and turning thinking things over
Like why my first grade teacher said I was too quiet
Or why I have a phobia of blood
But this week has been different
I fall into these really deep sleeps where I wake up feeling like my body is being regenerated
No single thought is tossed around in my brain for an unnecessary amount of time
It’s kind of an awesome feeling
It makes me feel refreshed
I’ve had some negative side effects mostly from the steroids
I swear the way they can make the most mundane food taste gourmet is amazing 😍
And there is NO hunger like a steroid hunger 🐷
But mostly manageable through medications
I keep trying to remind myself that it’s totally okay if all I did today was shower or sleep
Then my mind tries to tell me that it’s not normal to sleep all day
But when the hell has my mind ever been right anyway?
And when have I ever cared about things being normal?