‘Bitterness is like cancer. It eats upon the host. But anger is like fire. It burns it all clean.’ Maya Angelou

I was on the phone with my caseworker from my private insurance who will be in charging of making a decision in my claim for Long Term Disability

We were on the phone for over an hour

An hour in which I often felt I had to defend my illnesses

An hour in which I often felt the need to justify my request

An hour in which I stumbled over words that would have once come so easily to me

An hour in which my body ached and my eyes felt tired

I’m stuck between an employer who tells me I’m not capable and an insurer who tells me I’m not sick enough

I’m stuck between wanting to work and wanting to be off

I’m stuck between wanting to fight and wanting it all to just be over

So here I sit

Yet again waiting for someone else to decide my fate

While I wait

With my heart in my throat

With my stomach in knots

Without hope for a better tomorrow

Without any hope

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5 thoughts on “‘Bitterness is like cancer. It eats upon the host. But anger is like fire. It burns it all clean.’ Maya Angelou”

  1. Oh dear, I am so sorry for what you are dealing with. I feel your frustration and wish I could do something to help you. It is really sad they are putting you through so much unnecessary issues and they should be ashamed of themselves. You are better and stronger than you realize. Don’t give into these people because you deserve way better ♡! Sending you as many positive vibes that I can ♡♡♡

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