‘In 3 Words I Can Sum Up Everything I’ve Learned About Life: It Goes On.’ R. Frost

Multiple Sclerosis

I didn’t even know what it was until after I was diagnosed

I had heard about it

Montell Jordan

How sad

And all that

But I had no clue what it actually was

It’s amazing what you can learn when you have no choice

Multiple Sclerosis is an autoimmune disease of the central nervous system

The central nervous system is comprised of the brain and spinal cord

An autoimmune disease is when your immune system mistakenly attacks itself

There is no definitive answer on why someone’s immune system would turn on itself

Nor is there a definitive answer as to what causes MS

There is obviously speculation to both

Some people speculate that the environment or genetics could be the cause

MS attacks myelin

Myelin is the protective coating of nerves which causes inflammation and can be damaged

Those damaged areas are lesions on the brain or spinal cord

Myelin is responsible for the transmission of nerve impulses

Without myelin doing it’s job

Communication is damaged between nerve cells

Therefore the body doesn’t get instructions to perform necessary functions like walking or seeing

It sounds so complicated and scientific on paper

But all it really means

Is that your body stops working in the ways it’s supposed to

It’s stops listening to basic control functions that it once took for granted and did without thought

MS triggers a state of uncertainty

In being diagnosed

You have an answer as to what is happening

But you have no clue as to why it is happening

Nor do you have any idea as to what to expect later today, tomorrow or in the far off future

You hear stories and see campaigns which declare Canada as having one of the highest rates of MS in the world

But you have no knowledge as to why that it is

You are constantly told that the brightest and most successful people are looking for cures, treatments and answers

But it has no bearing on your daily life

What you do learn very quickly

And understand with absolute certainty

Is that your life will never be the same again

Your life goes from reading and working and going out and travelling

To daily injections, sharp eye pain, bone weary fatigue and a total lack of outside understanding

A lifetime of not knowing

In the blink of an eye

Angela, I’m sorry…you have MS

And the words that were already printed in the book of your life

Disappear and all that’s left are three little words

Life

Goes

On

And I can’t think of another sentence that conjures up feelings of hope and complete terror

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